time to move on..

when you found there’s no passion… when you thought it’s hopeless… when you feel you’re stuck… it’s time to move on… don’t just sit there and expect a miracle… so now i do what i should do… make a plan and do it… i don’t know what future can bring… but i know what i [...]

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*sigh*

I was thinking to start my no complaint week today because I really thought it’s really good to build my character. But what i get today makes me wanna scream. It’s just like unfunny joke, a curse with no cure, feel so wasted… When you think you stretched yourself beyond your imagination and working so [...]

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2nd day my nocomplaintweek

Well, i didn’t write any blog yesterday as I get high fever. I slept since I was home and this morning I manage to go to the office for an hour to do some necessary things. My first day of no complain week is not that bad. I do one or two “soft complain” but [...]

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No complaint week-another project

It started when i read my timeline of my twitter, from my friend Henry, He said that he won’t complain for a week. It’s his project, inspired by Will Bowen who is the Lead Minister of One Community Spiritual Center in Kansas City, MO. Me and my Hubby are just done watching Julie & Julia on [...]

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that hurts….

I thought  it won’t hurt… I already knew it coz I can feel it… I thought I will overcome all the feelings… But why it makes me cry…. It even didn’t have a heartbeat yet… I wish I can blame something, I wish I can blame me… But I don’t know why it happens… Why [...]

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… and I am pregnant (again)….and loose it…

I knew that I am pregnant when I feel so tired and so hungry since last week. So when I missed my period I did some home test and the result is positive. I did it twice just to make sure the result is reliable. It’s a good news as we plan to have another [...]

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a career woman is a worse mom?

I read some comment on my friend’s FB status that said “good mom”  and the next comment “… sometime as a career woman, they ask the nanny to do everything for the baby ..” it’s a fee translation from Bahasa. I really wanna laugh because of that comment. I don’t know the guy who gives [...]

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where am i?

I just listen to this song Where are you Christmas by Faith Hill, Where are you Christmas Why can’t I find you Why have you gone away Where is the laughter You used to bring me Why can’t I hear music play My world is changing I’m rearranging Does that mean Christmas changes too Where [...]

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first time never come twice

Today i found out that Kirana can put herself on her tummy.  She was on her box and  I was in front of the computer. So now and then  I will check her to make sure she is OK (well.. mostly i was busy with my chat i guess ), and when i check her, [...]

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on motherhood

So here  I am in the middle of my maternity leave. I’m so lucky that I can get 7 months off and still get paid for taking care of my baby…  I wish i could get a longer time off with the paycheck in my account It’s been so long since my last blogging..  Pretend [...]

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